November 25th, 2005


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jimbojones
03:50 pm - a lot of people drop science, but they don't know the math
I know it's meant as a compliment, but it makes me a little uncomfortable when people keep asking me "why are you in college for this stuff again?" when the conversation rolls around to "shop talk", ie something network / programming / security related.  The obvious answer, of course, is that no matter how much you know about a given technical topic, your career roadpath is beset by obstacles sown with landmines if you don't have a college degree in it; but I really want there to be more to it than that.  I don't want my college experience to be just dotting i's and crossing t's to become employable.  I don't want it to be something to be bitter about; I want to see what I'm doing as worthwhile and valuable in its own right, and enjoyable besides, and that kind of thought process doesn't help.

There was a time when I'd have happily soaked up that sort of comment; rolled with it, encouraged it.  The honest truth is, I've spent a lot of, if not most of, my life... well, I suppose "desperately insecure in the midst of palpable security" would be an interesting way to put it.  It's a salve to emotional wounds to use your strengths to try to impress people, thus propping up the weaknesses you're curled around - rather than using your strengths intelligently, to build things.  I've applied way too much of that salve, over the years.  I don't want to do it anymore.

So, yeah, what about the real answer to the bewildered (or even annoyed) question "why are you in college again?"  It's too long and involved to respond with in casual conversation, but I can give it here, even if the folks who ask it will never see it:  Because it represents opportunity.  Because I am taking the opportunity to really learn things.  Because, no matter how it may look to a hapless newbie taking a programming class side-by-side with me - no matter how much of a joker in the deck I may be in a class like that - I do get a lot out of it.  Because I genuinely enjoy it.  Because it makes me feel better about myself.  And last, though probably not least, simply because I can.
 

 
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[User Picture] From: herbaliser
Date: November 25th, 2005 - 08:57 pm
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“TO MEET CHICKS”


 
[User Picture] From: jimbojones
Date: November 25th, 2005 - 09:21 pm
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Heh. There is some INCREDIBLE eye candy on the USC campus, but the more 18-19 year old girls you're surrounded by, the more obvious it becomes why you don't really want one of your very own. =)


 
[User Picture] From: lindapendant
Date: November 25th, 2005 - 09:33 pm
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Curses ! She beat me to the chicks comment ! However, all is not lost, I wanted you to take note that we both used the word palpable in our journal entries today ! What are the odds ?


 
[User Picture] From: jimbojones
Date: November 25th, 2005 - 09:35 pm
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I think you just want me to palpate you.


 
[User Picture] From: lindapendant
Date: November 25th, 2005 - 11:26 pm
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Yeah Baby, Yeah !


 
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Date: November 28th, 2005 - 05:26 am
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[User Picture] From: jimbojones
Date: November 28th, 2005 - 07:07 am
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Oh, it's by no means just your family. But yeah your dad tends to do that too, although he hasn't really been bad about it except for the one time last Thanksgiving. Mostly now he just says it in a positive sort of way.


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